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Cheki cheki

A day out with Jane, Miao, Willen and Daniel.
First, Puchong for Jojo Pan Mee. (Kate, I know you hate this)
Jane and Miao are really sweet, always make me feel lonely, HAHA!
Miao and Dan's sense of humour kills me upside down.
Then, Willen fetched us to Sg.Wang.
The guys minded their own business while Jane and I went for shopping.
I bought lashes, dress and a belt. Jane bought her super high heels and skirt.
I told her "I won't want to club with you if you're wearing this pair of heels"
ps : I'm proud to be the first person to use Jane's new cheki.

SPM is too near.
I'm studying Biology with Jane tomorrow and BBQ Plaza after revision.
Woohoo, I feel so motivated.
Check out my new picture on the sidebar, edited by Jane =)

Book with a cover

Yes that's me.
Not much differences, haha.
Just that my hair grew longer.
Eyebrows trimmed.
Eyes with eye liner.
My face, ears, lips and nose are still the same.
Do you know how hard I worked to be improve myself??

Yes, people normally say girls who make up are fake.
People usually discriminate ugly people.
"She looks ugly/ordinary without cosmetics" / "Ewww, she's not pretty"
OR people say "natural is the best, real is beautiful"
Bullshit, will you even look at Leah Dizon at the first place if she doesn't dress sexy or make up?
Why is she famous? She is famous because she looks hot.
We often see her being ambassador for contact lenses and she dresses sexily.
Have you ever seen her without lens? Google it.

Some not-so-lucky people were born not so good looking but that's not a sin.
The point is will you work hard to be better?
Will you still like Lady Gaga even when she's without make up?
YES, I will still.
No big deal, she still sings well and still the fashion icon.
Megan Fox is smoking hot but I suppose that "photoshop" does a good job.
Some people insult girls who used photoshop too much.
No comment because I don't use BUT if I knew how to use, I'll still use.
That's not wrong, not a crime!!

Hello, I admit that I was born ugly
BUT I don't feel embarrassed using cosmetics to make myself look better.
At least I try improving myself to impress others.
I don't have a pretty face, so what?
As long as I have a beautiful heart, hehe.

Beyond love

I look like this without make up. Teehee.
Went out with Hengkian last month for breakfast.

We have almost the same Nike jacket.


Went for Chemistry class today with a bandaged waist.
Jazmint was the only one who asked "How is your arse?"
My website is still under progression, I've got my head over heels about this.

Let me be the last to wish you happy birthday, Amanda Lum.
This was the last time I met you, almost 2years ago.
Shit, I don't want to say much because I miss you girls so much.


I love sharing and I only share cool stuffs. So, better watch it.
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1142094187652&ref=share

Feel the love and affection, I LOVE the 2:26min and 5:56min parts.
Suffocating, sweet to excess, bees attack.
I bet that I would have fainted on spot if I attended this auspicious wedding.
I assume that they live in Australia from their strong Aussie accent.
The bridegroom said "I like how you keep me grounded"
Crap.....................I want a boyfriend or a husband like this.

Busy buzz

I heard this on the day they posted it.
They are really good, talented and gifted. Angel's voice.
Their version is way better than the original one by Tamia.
Some of you realized me singing this song as I set it as my blog's auto-play song last week.
Those who know that was me singing are really my faithful readers.
Of course, I know I don't sing well and I can't sing. Who can teach me singing? Please.


COMING UP.

*She was looking down, not there.
1. Outings with my sister and friends before I injured myself.


2. An Arabian randomly flirted with me in the mall.
He asked me to be his girlfriend on the first day we met.
I rejected of course, I'm not that open minded but he's still not giving up.
He is hot anyway. Eager to see him? Stay tuned.

3. A day out with Iman, my Iranian friend.
We are going to have a blast after my exam okay? =D


I have been neglecting everything recently because I injured myself and I tried to study.
Just stayed at home, waiting for recovery and stayed away from my laptop.
My back, waist and legs are fully recovered now, I think...
Everyone is so worry about SPM and studying like nobody's business.
Why? I don't give a damn about SPM and I don't feel tension at all.
I tried not to online for days, tried studying but failed.
Save me!

Website

Someone offered me to have my own website, own domain for free.
Wow, that's so cool for me. I'm still considering.
I'm worry about relinking, visitors, clicks and stuff.
People are normally lazy to relink.
I'll be really stress if the traffic is not good, doesn't hit my target everyday.
Will you relink?
Will you still visit?
Will you read?
What do you think?
Website or blogger?

I'm hungry

The very first time of my life.
I can't feel my legs and arse now. Only feel numbness.
Obviously, I couldn't make it to the Addmaths test.
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16/10/2009 4.06am
I missed 2 tests for some reason but no worries, I didn't break my legs.
I stopped updating my blog for 3days to do a test.
My visitors dropped to average 1200 with 900 uniques per day with no updates.
I miss the old days when I used Wretch to blog, 2000 uniques per day.
I guess my blog is getting boring, that's why I'm losing readers, I'm sorry.
Still, I sincerely thank those faithful readers of mine.

Do you readers still remember my Wretch blog?
I even paid to blog last time but I'm paid to blog now.
I clicked on it last 2 days and I found out that my blog's visitor counter had hit 500k.
I made the blog almost private with only making few posts public and some with password.
Yet, there are visitors. I'm happy.
I miss that blog, highest number of comment for a post reached 200, so cool!
There are good and bad memories. The time when I was crazily in love.
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/daphnEjay

My album is not doing good, only hit 100k as I only made 2 albums public.
Password required = Can't enter = No clicks = No visitors.
http://www.wretch.cc/album/daphnEjay

Many readers asked me these questions -"How to slim down?" and "How do you keep fit?"
My eldest sister is 169cm but only 37kg, TOP model.
For your information, my sister and I eat whatever we like.
I don't eat much, I eat in a regular quantity BUT I must have at least 5meals a day.
1.Breakfast(Mostly milo/milk and biscuits/cake).
2.Break time(Nuggets, french fries and other fried food)
3. Lunch in school(Rice, vegetables, meat and fruits)
4.Tea time(MCD sometimes, fried food, cakes and drinks like bubble tea/sugarcane)
5.Snack time(Whatever I have in my kitchen - chocolates, biscuits, bread, ice cream)
6.Dinner (Balanced diet)
7.Soup time (White carrot and cabbage soups are my favourite)
8.Juice/Fruit time (My mum says fruits are healthy)
9.Supper! (Roti canai/Whatever food I have in the kitchen like bacons!)
My sister and I LOVE bacons.
I can't help it, I just love bacons so much, especially those with majority fats.

So, stop asking me these questions =)
I can already hear the birds chirping, I need to sleep now, good night.

Loved

Inside joke.

I have too much to share.
I was looking through the messages in my old phone again.
I never stopped laughing and smiling.

Addmaths. I haven't even touched the book.
I'm going to die tomorrow and obviously fail the test.
Biology on Wednesday, worse.
After that, trial is finally over!
I'm still not studying, crap, help me.

My extraordinary 17th

Read it, it might teach you something. It is touching for me.
I used almost 4 hours to finish this.
Kindly leave your thoughts about me in the comment box as chatbox has been removed.
Comments are appreciated.

I don't care about the consequences it will bring.
I'm doing a confession here, now.

I had a heart-to-heart conversation with my bestie, Xen.
He looks very tough, he's fearless, fierce and he likes to scold people, I don't know why, haha.
I suppose all the girl friends to know that he is actually a very soft-hearted person.
For example, he teased and insulted me in front of friends but after that he'll apologize to me.
How adorable, HAHA! He's a nice guy, sensitive in fact.
He told me that he doesn't know how it feels like to love a person anymore.
My heart felt a sudden pain for this heart broken guy.
*(I personally think that Xen and Chooi Ying look great together)
He's too tough to express his feelings to a person, big man.
I guess I know how does he feel and think.
He didn't say no, means he admitted that what I said was true.
The conclusion is he is having this "love-phobia"

Anyway, this creepy fate brought us together.
I'm glad to love him as a bestie and I'm glad to have him to love me as a bestie.
We started talking when I had problems with Gerald.
Then, break up problem, Kok's problem, break up again.
We keep in touch and stay in contact until now although he's in Germany.
We don't talk everyday, not often but not seldom.

Daphne is a blah blah blah drama queen.
Her life is so dramatic, she is so stupid.
She blogs so often about everything, so exposed.
So many guys around her, this guy yesterday and that guy today.
Guys come and go, flirt and tackle, court or give up.
Melt her heart and Daphne goes like "OMG, so sweet"
She falls for it easily, too easily.
Hello, I'm real, that's why you're reading my blog.
Admit that you like it and you read it often.
Why are you reading it often? -because I'm real, I don't hide.
I'm not being dramatic but I just like to share. I like to influence people.
I have more male friends than female friends in fact because girls normally hate me.
Girls always say I'm a drama queen, want attention or something.
You'll never know the feeling of being repelled by girls, being badmouthed.
You treat your friends sincerely but you don't get friendship love in return.

True, I've been a pathetic emo queen for my ex boyfriends.
Uh-uh, watch this and mark my words.
For those who have not experienced this, better not badmouth or judge this FIRST.
I'm 101% sure that you'll come to this one day. It's just that I experienced earlier.
When you loved somebody and somebody left you, don't be sad, don't cry ya.
Round an applause for you if you can get over in 1hour. =)

A flashback, it has been almost 8months.
Everyone knows that I'm suffocated by Gerald.
He is the best I've had. He is nice, kind-hearted, gentle, good but just too playful.
The truth hidden beneath about the break up, I can't tell, until now.
I never told anyone and I'm not going to tell anybody even Gerald doesn't know.
I lied about everything. I hope I have the chance to speak this out one day.
Gerald and I were still close like couples after the non-official break up.
I loved him too much to let go and I had decided to have him back with the surprise party.
The surprise party I planned long failed as he asked for an official break up a couple days later.
His feelings for me had faded and another third person had appeared again.
The first week was awful, terrifying and horrifying.
I had experienced my first time fainting, in my whole life.
I had experienced a drop of weight from 39kg to 32kg.
I had experienced not eating not drinking not sleeping.
I had experienced locking myself in my room for days, weeks and months.
I had experienced not going out and being an anti-social.
I had experienced crying and wetting my pillow every day and night.
I had experienced swollen eyes and were not able to put on contact lens.
I had experienced making my mother worried and cried for me.
I had experienced not talking to my family for 2weeks.
I had experienced making the SOULBABES disappointed.
I had experienced torturing myself and hurting myself physically.
and YES, I did experience smoking and drinking but these never worked to heal me.
I begged him to come back and leave the girl.
I surrendered, I did whatever I could to make him stay.
I was willing to accept that girl. I suffered heartache and I failed in a week.
I couldn't share, I can't share, I couldn't bear to see him dating with her.
I hated, so much. I hated a lot. I hated the whole world.
From that time on, I promised myself not to look back.
I even scolded him awfully with foul language and asked him to stay away from me.
I promised. I promised myself not to look back. I hated a lot.
I hated the world for giving me such hardship.
I have to accept this hardship that caused the break up with my precious one.
There was no U-turn since I wanted the break up first.
I swear, I was not willing to break up with him, I did so for his own good.
(Every single time I talk about this, I cry, seriously feel sad.)

I blamed my dad for the hardship.
I ignored him and I didn't even call or greet him, I didn't even want to see him.
I stopped calling him "daddy" for 6months.
Slap me for that.
I appeared to be strong to protect my mother.
I'm not a kid anymore, I'm able to protect my mother.
My sisters and mother scolded me for being disrespectful.
(My dad and I are doing good now, no worries)

Kok showed up to be supportive in that few months after the break up.
He talked to me a lot through msn, he encouraged me, tried his best to make me happy.
He even came back to M'sia to see me (as what he said last time)
He gave me memorable 14days of my life.
He came back for 15days and he came to see me for 14days.
He was so sweet, he was never like this to other girls as I was his first girlfriend.
He liked to tease and insult me like nobody's business last time.
He had a 360degree change and treated me so well, more than I expected.
He gave me surprises. For example, the first surprise.
He came up with a "Tiff and co." necklace, asked me to close my eyes and wore it up for me.
Hey, he's Kok. Kok only drinks, he is like "anti-girl" type, you know?
He did such romantic thing to me. Can you believe it?
I still have the video of him confessing to me and asking me to be his girlfriend.
I swear, that totally melted my heart.
I threw away my dignity as I am going to BE WITH MY EX-BOYFRIEND'S BEST FRIEND.
Do you know it's an extreme super duper big huge mighty important decision to make?
I swear, I cracked my head. I was confused and I even consulted his friends.
I was completely, deeply, truly, sincerely in love with Kok.
I swear, I swear, he was not a substitution nor replacement of Gerald.
He promised that he'll always love me and never hurt me.
He gave me promises and the commitments made me naive.
I was so confident about this relationship and I seriously thought it will last.
That was my first time thinking that long distance relationship works.
Yes, I was naive to believe, was I?

The day he left, I was with him in the airport.
I remember he told me that "Baby, wait for me, I'll be back"
6days passed by after he got back to Perth, he told me his feelings for me had partially faded.
Another 2days later, he asked for a break up.
I swear I was totally broken down. I stunted, disappointed, lost, miserable.
What can I do? What was that? What did he say?
I couldn't believe it, what was that? He said he has no more feelings for me? Remind me please.
What can I do? I only look like a stupid bitch, desperate for guys in people's eyes.
How do their friends, my friends, my mother, the people look at me? judge me?
I was with this guy and I was with this guy's best friend.

WHAT WAS I DOING?
I regretted it. Yes, a lot.
I'm not regret for loving Kok.
Kok is great, he is awesome, he is wonderful, I know he loved me a lot.
The reason of breaking up he gave me was I cared for him too much.
Yes, true, people said that our relationship started too fast.
I did try to slow down but, hello! I'm just a girl. I'm Daphne.
My heart melts easily, what can I do? I couldn't resist.
The point is I didn't force him to ask me to be his girlfriend. He just did, he asked me.
I loved him so much and I gave up my dignity.
Kok is wonderful, I have never regretted loving him.
But I was wrong for choosing my ex-boyfriend's best friend, so wrong, so wrong..
I was so afraid to meet their friends after I accepted Kok's love.
I refused to be with him when the friends were around. I didn't and I don't know how to face them.
They know each other, the friends will think of you like one kind.
I was ashamed and I am ashame of myself.
Kok told me "Do not care about what they think about you, you're with me but not my friends"
These lines did give me the courage to be with him.
I was strong to endure prejudice because I loved him and I wanted to be with him.
I didn't care about the consequences and circumstances.
That made me stupid and naive, I didn't think wisely, I was and I'm still immature.
Love was everything for me last time. I was and I am willing to do everything for love.
I was born like that, I'm sensitive, I'm not wrong.
I loved him and he was a 97% good boyfriend.
I hated, hated a lot, again. Why did it end so fast? No, why did it end? What did I do wrong?

I was stuck in the middle.
Now? What should I do now? What am I supposed to do? He dumped me and he dumped me too.
What was I? What am I right now? What is this now? Was I being fooled?
What should I do? What was I doing? What am I going to do? What do i get?
I'm just a bitch, desperate for guys BUT not a girl who only wants to be loved in people's eyes.
I was totally broken down by STUPID LOVE. I was totally numb.
Oh please, love is shit. I've been single after these 2 relationships, love is scary.
LOVE IS SHIT! I was stuck and I am still stuck.
I promised myself to be single before SPM. Months passed, I'm doing well so far.
My aim later will be being single until I successfully build my career.
Not to say I'm totally widowed, what if I meet someone special but that's an aim.

Love is not like "I think I love you, ya, I love you"
True love doesn't exist for me in this age. Fake feelings will do.
True love doesn't exist in this age, young age.
Feelings fade too easily, too fast, no promises, no commitment. This is not love.
Loneliness or lust will do too. Love might exist for a glimpse of eye.
After that, goodbye and take care.

Love sucks, so much.

I study now just to get a better job and support my family.
My parents put me in a private school, sent me for classes, piano classes.
I was too stupid for not appreciating last time or else I'll be a piano master now.
I don't like being a professional person nor air stewardess.
I aim for high salary job intend to give my mother the best condition of life.
I want to give my mother everything she had last time.
I want to give her everything that she had lost now.
I want to be able to cover my mother's expenses.
I want to buy my sisters things that they desired to make them happy.
I want my family to be happy and to have the best.
I want my second sister to live with us but not with him.
I want my second sister to have a better job.
I want a happy and complete family.
I want to be able to take revenge on those people who gave me this hardship!

Young people, love is nothing for young age.
DO NOT LET LOVE KNOCK YOU DOWN.
I'm talking crap because love knocked me down.
I miss Kok a lot which I didn't mention or say a thing because I know he doesn't like it.
I so want to know about him, when is he coming back, is he going to look for me?
Does he have a new girlfriend? Did he quit smoking?
No doubts, I miss Gerald a lot too but I don't disturb his life with his new girlfriend.
No matter how sad I got, how much I missed him, I never called him up before.
I saw him with his girlfriend last month.
I was tough enough to put a smile on my face and say hi to them.
I'm not a playgirl. The conclusion is I'm stuck in between these 2 guys.
I seriously don't know how to get out of this shit.
The important thing is I tried countless times to get up.
Future is everything.
Family is everything.

I see you

I'm keen on stepping on the soft and squashy sand.

To feel a chilly sensation under my feet in contact with the demurest seawater.
I gaze at the gloomy sky that exerts a compelling force on my heart.
I'm willing to hear you out, mushy wind.
I clasp her in my hand, feel her sorrow and grief.
She refrains from telling me and swipes away.
A dim sunset steals my soul.
I stare in despair, tears spontaneously shed.
In an abrupt turn, I smile..because...
I see you.

Ignore me, I'm just being emotional and I'm writing craps.
My sleeping pass is approbated.
Good night.

Say WOAH

Okay, as I promised to post this. There you go.
I seriously think that I look fatter than real life in this picture.
Samantha and I were on Oriental Daily News, chinese newspaper.
Jane said she was on last 2weeks, didn't get to see hers.
Thanks Stephy for informing.

Description of Samantha.


I'm happy because IT'S POSITIVE!!
First time on the newspaper was about dancing.
This time is the second time, about fashion.
Two times positive!
Mama, be proud of your daughter.

Exaggerated description of me.


I came to grief and I had a long night.
I was totally broken down and I stayed up until 5am.
Feel the frustration and depression in me.
Getting over him is the hardest thing ever.
I enjoyed countless times of disappointment, failure and despondency.
This nightmares that tear my heart apart come to an end.

I woke up at 6am to revise mathematics.
I still survived in school and I took 2 and a half hours to finish my moral paper.
I finally had my bubble tea.
I'm like a pregnant woman who wants to eat what I want to.
Nobody can control my eating habit. I'm going to suffer worse menstrual pain later.
Good luck to me.

Dawdle

Barce in the middle of all MUs.

It was Wednesday, I was still being a sleeping pig at 1.30pm.

A call woke me up and 1 looked, 10missed calls from hunt.
He called again and he was outside my house.
Woahhh, I got prepared in 10minutes like a flying rocket.
I thought we were just going to have brunch nearby.
Unexpectedly, he brought me to JJ and met up with Bryan, Sylvia and Kok Chun.

Starbucks always comes first.


Rushed back to hunt's house because his dad wanted to use the car.
Then, they said "let's go to mid valley"
T was like........................ but, persuaded due to some reasons.

You won't wanna know.


Andrew landed on australia now, i guess?
He's going back to his MOTHERLAND, New Zealand.
Come back soon to your FATHERLAND, hahaha.
So, you can catch another cicada to frighten hunt.

Went to zanmai pasta for lunch, had a great chat with them.



Hello, Nike. I'm broke after buying you.
I say bye to Bobbi Brown eyeliner.


Stop dawdling and procrastinating, Daphne.
SPM trials. OH MY GOODNESS.
Parents, V and hunt are pressuring me like crazy.

Love comes around

Mama : "Do you want Levi's jeans?"
I'll say no if I'm a stupid brainless retard.
Mum chose this for me, slim cut.

Spent time with parents in the past few days.
Mama sprained her neck and back.
Western medicine doesn't work, guess chinese traditional methods help.


Mama wanted to have lunch at Dragon-i.

Everyone likes this.
My eldest sister's favourite.


Met up with Hunt, Kok Chun and Sylvia, accompanied them for lunch at Wendy's.

Then, movie time - Gamer.

Hunt.


You're so expensive, say hi to your new owner.
Thank you, pap and mama.


School is reopening which means it's SPM trials time.
Yes, I didn't study at all, have not even opened a book.
Congratulations, Daphne, you're so cool and you're sentenced to death.

Happy birthday, Nigel Lee. Forever my best nigga.
Happy birthday, Yong Han. Forever my best bro.
Both of you know me the best. Thanks for loving me as a friend, as a sister.

Popped

We planned to attend Jane's bbq party.
Plan changed due to some complications.
I went to Sunway Pyramid and had dinner with Heng.
Then, met up with my darling Toto.

What's next with them?
Poppy obviously.

Hatin' on the club.

*I missed Jane's party, so sad.
I didn't get to take picture with Bunny.

Drunk people.

New pretty friend.

My bro looks like Jay Chou.

Mr.Chua was drunk!!!

Wyman was drunk too.
Ms.kho LOVES these photos.



I love this girl so much.

The girls.



Had been a year since the last time I saw him.
My little bear, missed him so much.


Ah Foo was there too.
He is the only person that likes listening to my lame jokes. =)

They drank alcohol like water.

Ms.kho puked. hahaha
Pity my new heels.
I lent her because I wanted to wear flats and she didn't bring her heels.

All drunk except me.

Next day, went for dim sum at 3pm with the gang.
My hair is long. I'm lazy to wash but I still wash everyday.
So, saloon is my helping hand.
A luxurious salon like a hotel, amazed..

I'm sorry, my darling.
What a great friend. She waited for long, sorry.

Tell me I look cute like this.


Hair done.
Went back to Kengyu's house.
Then, headed to Sunway Pyramid with the gang.


Seriously, broke. I hate holidays.
Holidays mean outings mean shoppings mean broke.



Dinner with parents in the clubhouse.


Pap : "I have a surprise for you."
Mum : "What?"
First time, man.

Tamed.

came to an intersection.
undeterred but undertermined.
refused to be duplicated.
I should remain unchanged
but outrageously poisoned by your venom.
I ignored love's calls.
you lifted a weight on my mind.
I tried to resist

but I'm tamed.


I had starbucks mocha frap.
Can't sleep, thinking too much.
I should go to bed because I'm going for jogging with my parents few hours later.